4/27/24

So here I am again, hurting, not knowing what direction to go, yet following my inner voice to the next level of healing, of stripping away, of shoring up my infirmities, just to get on with life.  I've taken up smoking weed again, to the horror of my pulmonologist, but they've left me with no recourse...I can't  take ibuprofen, certainly not oxy, and the one and only dose I took of the alendronate (Fosamax) made me sick, dizzy, nauseous, throwing up. So weed is only my recourse against the pain. 

One side effect of changing my blood pressure meds is that for some reason, now I've caught up with my sense of eating right, I guess knowing that my weight is going to kill me if I don't get control of it. There's a guidance that I finally found in my own mind, of what to eat and how much, and what everything is doing to my body and mind and spirit. 

Not knowing the end result for osteoporosis is, disheartening, but I'm learning more every day. 

I'm also learning how to scale down what I'm doing to what I can accomplish ...knitting squares for my little prayer flags, my talismans, instead of weaving them. 

August 12, 2024

Of course I ended up in the ER  with pneumonia from the smoking, so I had to quit again.  Gummies are barely manageable, so back to getting high on life!  

I had gotten a little portable loom shaped like an I beam...liking it so much I made a big one from another frame loom I had gotten on sale at By Hand in Mt. Airy near the coop.  I was looking at someone's blog about fiber art and loving the hand spun yarns.  Tempting, but I have no more room for spinning equipment and storage.

When I have the brain power, I will download some more product pictures and loom pictures.  My weaving is improving, just not doing any fancy moves, just stripes of varying thicknesses and maybe some embroidery on the weave, or applique.  And color. Lots of color.  

For now, I'm still focused on healing my back, and healing my lungs, keeping my heart strong after nuclear stress test said I have a strong heart (OOHRAH!), and losing weight.  I'm stuck in a plateau, after several August birthdays (Inaya 8/7 15 years old and Me 8/10 80 years old), but each day is a new beginning.